Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Difficulty

There is no good way to start this post. I am about to become more real to my readers than I ever have before. Please indulge me while I expose my soft underbelly.

A catastrophic event has occur ed in my life. My mother has become terminal ill with lung cancer. It's to the point where I will have to be making some very difficult decisions in the coming weeks and months ahead. I am at home only about 3 days a week now, spending the rest of the time 100 miles away to be at the hospital.

Another difficulty I have right now is thinking much about myself, let alone my sexual self. Therefore I am stopping posting. Dirty Debbie is not one of those failed idle blogs, quite the contrary. These are circumstances that no one could foresee.

The wheel of life turns and there is a possibility that this diary will start a new book down the road next year. I'm hoping that I'll be able to do that. I'm going to keep a list of readers that would like to be notified if the site starts up again. If you'd like to be put on that list. Email me here. Or click on one of the links on the sidebar.

My hope for everyone is to keep loving each other, keep enjoying each other, and remember that every day needs to be savored.

See you in the blogsphere....debbie

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

I vounteered for an ambulance corps as an EMT for a long time. There were never any good words to tell someone when this kind of tragedy befell them, except "go be with your family". We will be here waiting for you when you are back......

Michael

Alfro said...

Debbie,
This shouldn't be a "Difficult" decision. The place to be is exactly where you are going.

Here's hoping all the best for you, and prayers for your mother.

Take care of yourself.

Tommy said...

Debbie,

You do what you have to do. I lost my mom last October to a wicked combination of COPD and skin cancer of the lining around her lungs. It was very difficult for me and my sisters, but we are making it.

Oddly enough, I found myself trying to appreciate life and my part in it more. I've come to the realization that her being gone doesn't change the fact that I should enjoy my life, but reaffirms my notions that I haven't done all I could to do so.

I still miss her, as I'm sure we all do when this happens. Less about the simple lack of her presence, and more about the example she set me by living life on her own terms. So go be with your family. We'll all be here when you're ready.

-Tommy

Cande said...

This is the first time on your blog for me.

I read your last post and thought about my mom who died 4 years ago from lung cancer. She was not a smoker. It was very fast, and very hard. The dying part was not the worst part. The worst part was the distance between us while she was sick.

Keep as close as you can to her while you can. Take advantage of her presence. You'll miss it when she's gone.

Best wishes and hugs.

Anonymous said...

I;ve just found your blog - and just sent you some pics; my timing is somewhat off, so I apologise.

That said, I too lost my father to this disease and sadly I was not by his side when he passed on. I know you will be there for your mom, and I pray her passage is easy.

Shay said...

I took me a while to make it around to here, but Deb I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. I'm wishing you strength in this difficult time.
I'll be keeping your spot on my link list for when you come back to us.

Mr Mrs Manic Depressive said...

Debbie,

We're sorry to hear about your mom. We send our hopes and prayers your way that God comforts you in this stressful and saddening time. We agree with Alfro, it's a pretty easy decision. Family comes first, ALWAYS! God bless, take care and we hope your mom continues her journey peacefully.

Dirty Debbie said...

Hi all
I wanted to be sure that everyone knew how much I have appreciated all your kind words, prayers, encouragements, and thoughts.

My mother ended her life with dignity on Sunday evening.

Take care of each other, savor every day, and if you have children be sure to let them know that you're happy.

Kold_Kadavr_flatliner said...

I’ve died and seen the OTHER side --- you alone decide where thy destiny lies (H or H), not God, not people nor circumstances; this Finite Existence is just a proving ground to achieve Heavenly sainthood. Why leave your ETERNAL destiny up to chance in this FINITE existence? Trust Jesus, not yourself. God bless you!

Anonymous said...

I know your pain. I have lost four relatives to cancer in the last three years, and I know about helplessly watching them die slowly and painfully. Just remember that you have friends waiting here for you to return, and we will be there for you. You talk about this if you need to, and we will listen.

- ToppHogg