I've been tempted by a free amateur pic site. I'm not talking about downloading all the usual porn that goes along with that description. I'm talking about uploading pictures of myself either alone or involved in one act or another.
I asked CJ what he thought of the idea and he told me to go ahead and do it.
I laughed and asked him what I was becoming. He made an excellent observation (if you'll excuse the pun):
I wasn't becoming anything that I wasn't already. I'm exploring a part of me that has always been there. That part is an exhibitionist.
I haven't had sex in public place since CJ and I were in college. That time it was at night behind a YMCA.
Until last fall I hadn't allowed my picture to be taken naked, since I was about 3 months old that is.
I have often fantasized about it and my stories on being a sex ed teacher reflect those fantasies You can find them in the September archives.
I'm enjoying it. It's thrilling and a turn on. I'm a 40-something woman that certainly doesn't have the body of Barbie, but it's becoming more obvious to me that doesn't matter. I have the confidence in who and what I am, it just doesn't matter.
What I'd like here is some commentary from self-proclaimed exhibitionists and any people out there that are at least tempted, as I am.
I am working through this. I'm fascinated by my own evolving behaviors.
What's the kick? What's the reason?
Come on show me....you know you want to.