I have a certain sexy thought that I don't know how to describe. It is a turn on and a turn off at the same time.
At times I think about CJ with the other women he's had.
I think of being a fly on the wall and watching.
That's a turn on for me...watching, knowing his expertise in bed, thinking of a woman in ecstasy because of him.
Then that little green monster sneaks in, a tinge of jealousy runs through my mind, and the whole idea almost disgusts me.
It's the idea of the opposite, of that woman making CJ feel so good.
I think if I could get a hold on that little green devil that it would be a fun 'game' to play with CJ. That is, to have him describe, including all the particulars, an encounter from the past. I would have to be allowed to ask questions. I would want the woman to be described physically. Smells, tactile stimulations, taste, every way this woman was experienced by CJ, I would want to hear about.
Then, and only then.
I am sure I would be ready to fuck his brains out.
Now, what about all my fair readers out there?
Is there something you consider a turn on and turn off at the same time?
Are you willing to confess it here?
Any insights into my 'dilemma'
Let me know.